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Have you ever just wanted to be held and cry.  I wouldn't call it depression... it's just a phase I hope.  I miss them so much.  They were everything to me.  I feel like a part of me died with losing those friendships.  I'm so lost on what to do right now.  I can't go back... there's nothing there for me anymore, but a hope of resurecting a dead past.  I know I can't have them back, but that doesn't make me miss them any less.  I love them more than they can imagine.  I always will... I just needed to vent.

The most cruel joke of all

(or perhaps the most powerful method of instruction)
of the POWER that IS
is a gentle but persistant pulling away
of the thing that you most desperately want, need, HAVE to hold on to

and then, as if to make His point perfectly clear,
you are forced to watch your greatest weakness speed away
without a single glance back
without checking its pace
as if to say, "I most definitely do not, nor ever did, need you to make me happy"

and you are left with nothing
but the POWER that IS

in other words, you are left with everything

my cruise!!! (so far)

so I'm on a boat on my way to jamaica now... don't you just hate me?  hehe.  In a few minutes i'll be going to get my full body and scalp massage.  i'm gonna try to get some pics i've taken on here.  enjoy! 

<3Hannah

the riviera shopping center

and yes thats a chess board.  the pieces were two feet tall

GORGEOUS piano and steel drums

the main plaza.  isn't that light fixture BEAUTFUL?!

to the left and right are the elevators.  there were these really pretty  coral and fish cut outs that you could look through as you went up.

casino!!  hehe.  I wasn't supposed to be in here.

there were 8 pools and 7 hot tubs on the boat

Again...

I drove to the mountains again today just to remember the time we spent.
You held me there and I felt like nothing in this earth could ever go wrong.
Embrace me again.

I picked a flower and took in the aroma... it was intoxicating.
Your smell used to consume me when I would bury my face in your arms.
Let me take it in again.

I listened to the music... each word brought another tear and memory
You used to sing and even though you were off key it was beautiful
Sing to me again.

I stared into the distance and thought of the moments we once shared.
You used to tell me you loved me and brush the hair from my face
Whisper gently those words again

Simply love me my dear the way you used to
And I'll love you the way I always have.

//it's a little random but it's something I wrote the other day and thought it was one of the better things I had written recently//

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